complex

I'm twenty-one
正值二十一岁
The edge is razor thin
日子过得如履薄冰
Between being numb and feeling everything
时而麻木无感 时而又被一草一木裹挟
Good days only serve as relief again
美好的日子 只会再次成为解脱
Now I'm watching as I waste away my days
此刻化身座上客 眼看着自己虚度光阴
And then it's a cross dissolve
光阴虚过 淡进淡出
It's a scene I've played before
旧日一幕 似曾相识
And the leading role that I thought I'd hold
天真以为 主角由我出演
Doesn't listen to me anymore
我的听众却已不再
But I'm wearing his boxers
而我穿着他的内裤
I'm being a good wife
努力做个贤妻良母
We won't be together
这辈子有缘无分
But maybe the next life
但或许来生能再续前缘
I need him like water
我多么离不开他 可他是捧留不住的水
He lives on a landslide
他栖在摇摇欲坠的悬崖之上
I cry in his bathroom
他的浴室里 我泪流满面
He turns off the big light
他熄了那盏明晃晃的灯
I'm being a cool girl
我竭力不露声色 做个洒脱的酷妞(出自Gillian Flynn的Gone Girl)
I'm keeping it so tight
紧攥的双手却率先摊了牌
I carry him home
我送他回家
While my friends have a good night
而我的朋友却都有个美好的夜晚
I need him like water
我多么离不开他 可他是捧留不住的水
He thinks that I'm alright
他却觉得我没什么大碍
I'm not feeling human
我逐渐超脱于世俗的情结
I think he's a good guy
玫瑰色滤镜加持下 我想他是个好人
But it's complex
可千头万绪 怎能理清
It's a complex
救世主情结 难以释怀
Triangular
卡普曼戏剧三角(即受害者 迫害者与拯救者)
I can see them now
此刻三者的关系 已然明朗
Three points at which I let myself down
我足足让自己失望了三次
I was just a girl
我就是个普通女孩
What's the excuse now?
哪来的什么借口?
Too regular
这种关系
This pattern
稀松平常
I've been taking shelter in reaching new highs
我一直在寻求庇护 为寻求新的刺激
When I was nineteen
记得十九岁时
I wanted to die
我曾想过一了百了
Now I just want to kill you
而今我只想把你了结
But I don't want to paint you the victim
却不愿将你描绘成受害者
And I talk a good game
我的口才 足以颠倒黑白
I'd die for just the promise you'd listen
只要你肯做我的听众 我就愿赴死
But I'm wearing his boxers
而我穿着他的内裤
I'm being a good wife
努力做个贤妻良母
We won't be together
这辈子有缘无分
But maybe the next life
但或许来生能再续前缘
I need him like water
我多么离不开他 可他是捧留不住的水
He lives on a landslide
他栖在摇摇欲坠的悬崖之上
I cry in his bathroom
他的浴室里 我泪流满面
He turns off the big light
他熄了那盏明晃晃的灯
I'm being a cool girl
我竭力不露声色 做个洒脱的酷妞
I'm keeping it so tight
紧攥的双手却率先摊了牌
I carry him home
我送他回家
While my friends have a good night
而我的朋友却都有个美好的夜晚
I need him like water
我多么离不开他 可他是捧留不住的水
He thinks that I'm alright
他却觉得我没什么大碍
I'm not feeling human
我逐渐超脱于世俗的情结
I think he's a good guy
玫瑰色滤镜加持下 我想他是个好人
But it's complex
可千头万绪 怎能理清
It's a complex
救世主情结 难以释怀
It's a complex
实在难以释怀
I'm a complex
只道是身在此山中