Breaking the Habit

Memories consume like opening the wound
回忆 不停啃食着我 像是不曾愈合的伤口
I'm picking me apart again
又一次 我撕裂伤口
You all assume I'm safe here in my room
你们或许都以为 躲在房间里的我会很安全
Unless I try to start again
除非我又开始试着伤害自己
I don't want to be the one the battles always choose
我不愿被迫卷入战争的旋涡
'Cause inside I realize that I'm the one confused
因为我明白 我的心困惑不已
I don't know what's worth fighting for
我不明白战斗的意义何在
Or why I have to scream
亦或为何我会嘶声呐喊
I don't know why I instigate
为何我要煽动众人
And say what I don't mean
说些言不由衷的话语
I don't know how I got this way
我不知为何会变成如今这般
I know it's not alright
我清楚这并非明智之举
So I'm breaking the habit
所以 我要打破惯例
I'm breaking the habit tonight
今夜 我就要破茧重生
Clutching my cure I tightly lock the door
紧抓着我的十字架 我紧锁上门
I try to catch my breath again
我试着呼吸 重新感受自己的气息
I hurt much more than anytime before
回应的却是无尽的苦痛
I had no options left again
原来 我早已别无选择
I don't want to be the one the battles always choose
我不愿被迫卷入战争的旋涡
'Cause inside I realize that I'm the one confused
因为我明白 我的心困惑不已
I don't know what's worth fighting for
我不明白战斗的意义何在
Or why I have to scream
亦或为何我会嘶声呐喊
I don't know why I instigate
为何我要煽动众人
And say what I don't mean
说些言不由衷的话语
I don't know how I got this way
我不知为何会变成如今这般
I'll never be alright
或许我永远也不会好
So I'm breaking the habit
所以 我要打破惯例
I'm breaking the habit tonight
今夜 我就要破茧重生
I'll paint it on the walls
我在墙上肆意涂鸦发泄
'Cause I'm the one at fault
因为错的永远是我
I'll never fight again
我再也不会辩驳反抗
And this is how it ends
这会是最后的结局
I don't know what's worth fighting for
我不明白战斗的意义何在
Or why I have to scream
亦或为何我会嘶声呐喊
But now I have some clarity
但此刻我明白
To show you what I mean
让你清楚我存在的真正意义
I don't know how I got this way
我不知为何会变成如今这般
I'll never be alright
或许我永远也不会好
So I'm breaking the habit
所以 我要打破惯例
I'm breaking the habit
我要打破惯例
I'm breaking the habit tonight
今夜 我就要破茧重生